February 24th, 2015

To become a master at anything requires hard work, dedication, and wonderful mentors. Within the floral design world, there are many beautiful styles and techniques to learn or un-learn. I tend to gravitate towards a more natural organic look within arrangements. A great designer named Paul Norman once told me,

‘ Let the shape and direction of the flower dictate its own path within the design.”

Is it to far of a stretch to also use this as a metaphor for my life choices at the moment? I am a very blessed lady, with an amazing boss and mentors (as well as a delightful paycheck every week for my line of work). I also get to live in New Orleans, which is one of the most beautiful cities in the world. I have a partner who loves me and would accompany me on any adventure I wanted to go on. Yet, I can’t shake the feeling that something is missing. I want to be my own boss one day, though I know right now is not the appropriate time. I want to travel and be inspired by some of my favorite designers out there. Why is money such a blessing and a curse, and why can’t I make up my mind as to what my next steps should be?

I’ve never been a fan of routine. I’ve always subconsciously rejected it. (That could also be why I haven’t written a blog post in 6 months.) It could also be why I’ve had trouble establishing the steps I should take to reach my long-term goals. I recently read a book called “So Good They Can’t Ignore You”. In the book, the author debunks the “passion mindset” that there is some random passion everyone needs to find to be happy in their work (which is what I believed for years and years). He brings up ideas of “career capital” (mastering rare and valuable skills), placing “little bets” (or taking on small steps, tests, and projects to help give you direction in your career), and developing a mission for yourself that will benefit the world in someway. I believe I am in the developing “career capital” and placing “little bets” phase of my art and work. I think in order for me to be successful I need to learn to love routine. I’d ideally like to wake up very early, eat breakfast, meditate, read, practice yoga, and get perfectly dressed before work in the mornings. I believe this would give me more clarity and help me decide what “little bets” I should be taking next.

This is such a beautiful world to feel lost in. I hope to find a new adventure soon.

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